Post by Susan Peabody on Apr 11, 2016 19:00:41 GMT
Where my Heart Is
I just want people to know where my heart is. What I am charging you for should be free. It is universal knowledge being channelled from somewhere through me. If I ever win the lottery or get a huge donation, and do not need the money, all this will be my gift to the universe which has done so much for me.
I went to therapy for the first time when I was 19, and the judge made it part of my probation. I was seduced by my therapist so it did not go well. Still I found other therapists over the years that helped a little. Progress was so slow however.
When I went to my first twelve-step program it was free. Things really took off. I went to meetings, I found a sponsor, I worked the steps, I socialized, I studied the literature, I made special friends.
I looked at my sponsor one day and started crying. I was so full of shame and my self esteem was so low. I asked her, "Why are you doing it for free?" She said, "A couple of reasons. God asked me to and someone did it for me. I am just passing it on."
I have never forgotten this lesson and my dream is to get back to just passing on the wisdom God sends to me. Like most writers the information just flows and I barely have time to preserve it for the future. It is downloading data on a computer.
I just wanted you to know this. People project so many different things on to me. It is amazing. Only God really knows who I really am.