Post by Susan Peabody on Mar 26, 2019 16:26:47 GMT
March 24, 2029
God sent me the following message last night . . .
These last two years I have bee taking care of my husband, my son, and my sister The only thing that I could afford to do for myself was eat. So I ate too much. Now that I'm taking better care of myself I don't need the extra food I can replace the food with something else. Self care
This stems from the fact that I have gained 100 lbs since being evicted and living with my son for two years.
I turned to sugar as a child to soothe myself. I have been all different sizes: small, medium, and large. My top weight is 300 lbs. But I have also been anorexic. That led to an attempt to starve myself to death because of my depression and obsession over an unavailable man.
Today I have 9 days without sugar. 9 days without eating past 8:00 o'clock.
Years ago I had a flashback about being molested by my father at bedtime. I blacked out and woke up in the kitchen eating potato chips like a robot. So night eating has to go.