My Plans May 15, 2016 16:30:44 GMT
Post by Susan Peabody on May 15, 2016 16:30:44 GMT
My story of love addiction has been published in the book, "Women Survivors." It was a painful process but I have always believed in the power of telling your story. I learned this at my first meeting of Alcoholics Anonymous, by way of Overeaters Anonymous.
In AA meetings, I cried when I heard some of the stories people were telling because they reminded me that I was not alone. By the way, I was interviewed once about this. I asked the journalist who was interviewing me what was the thing that all alcoholics in AA have in common. He paused and said, "They all remember the day they found out that they were not the only one in the world with this problem." It was the very beginning of their recovery." So I was not just a vouyer, it was helping me heal.
So I began telling my own story, and eventually found the courage to write about my love addiction. Now God has seen to it that it is published. I needed this validation that I was on the right path.
As for my life's story, I only got one request years ago and I was not ready. I struggled with the idea that it was too narcissistic to tell my story. I thought "who cares?" And won't I be considered vain if I publish my story? I am not sure if this was humility or embarrassment (shame) or what, but it held me back for a long time. Of course it could have been low self-esteem, but the roots of that lie in toxic shame as our dear departed John Bradshaw said.) His obituary . . .
Now I am ready to start putting the pieces together and this blog is where I am going to do it.
I put myself in God's hands. As I talk about in my article "My Heavenly Agent," if it is meant to be God will make it so.
May 15, 2016