Post by Susan Peabody on May 11, 2016 15:42:05 GMT
I learned to turn it over in Alcoholics Anonymous. It took years to get the hang of it. First I had to find someone to turn it over to. But soon after arriving in AA I had a spiritual awakening that I describe in my book, Addiction to Love. Once I believed in God with all my heart I wanted, intellectually, to surrender to God and give all my problems to God. Easier said than done. But as I have documented many times before, I found directions in the book, Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions, (second step) and the "Chapter to the Agnostic," in the book Alcoholics Anonymous. I followed these instructions and then had my spiritual awakening. The rest is history.
For the purposes of this thread I want to give examples of turning it over. Here are some posts that explain what happened.
Post by Susan Peabody on May 11, 2016 15:44:33 GMT
Original Post in my Go Funds account. . .
I am an author and educator. Everything I do is to help others find happiness. I like doing this because after a nervous breakdown in 1982 I was saved and put on a path to recovery from love addiction and alcoholism. Now I am a wounded healer and my story was recently published in the book, "Women Survivors." My special interest is helping people who cannot afford to pay for help. To this end, I have started three non-profits and written 4 books. Now the time has come for me to ask for help. For a further explanation, see the donations page of my website. God bless us all . . .
All my life I have heard the phrase "existential crisis," even though I really don't know what existential means. Last night, I think I had one. I could not decide if I should go back to charging my clients to raise some money or go forward with my plan to offer my services sliding scale. All night I prayed for a sign. This morning I woke up and got on my email. There it was. My first donation and my sign all rolled into one. I am in shock to be honest how quickly God answers prayers. Now I am going to try and absorb this miracle as I go back to trying to save the world. Thank you Ruth. You are my first angel from heaven on my new journey. God is good. (One of my favorite cliches.)
Update . . .
From my first donar Ruth . . . And it was the first thing I saw on my Facebook feed as I woke up. I had some money set a side for a donation I was going to make elsewhere however I was told they met their goal the night before. It is super great how things work out. I have always known you through your books and here on FB and knew you would do something good in the world with the money.
Post by Susan Peabody on May 12, 2016 16:40:05 GMT
I want to add that soon after a miracle happens, God sometimes send some extra validation that all is well. The day after my little miracle, I turned on the television show. "The Story of God," was playing. This is an excellent television series about miracles in all faiths.
Post by Susan Peabody on May 17, 2016 21:27:29 GMT
Here is another example of turning it over. . .
The following correspondence occurred between me and the members of my love addiction message board. I had asked for donations and then all hell broke loose.
A lot has been going on behind the scenes. When I sent out my email asking for donations because I was overdrawn at the bank, I got a reply that I was "starting to sound like a victim." I was embarrassed and so I immediately took down the original post about being overdrawn at the bank. Then I began a correspondence with a woman I will call "Helpful." No matter what I said she kept sending me message about how to earn more money so I did not need donations. I sent her all my blog entries about coming to terms with sliding scale as a middle ground between charging people, which I do, and giving help for free to those that don't. I even had a sign from God that sliding scale was the answer. It is a long story. But Helpful was determined that I had a poverty consciousness and should be doing this that and the other think about earning money. So finally, I sent her the following message.
Greetings. I don't think we are on the same page. While I appreciate your suggestions, I have done as much as I care to regarding publicity for my non-profit Brighter Tomorrow which sponsors the message board. I have done a lot myself and even paid professionals. Right now my focus in on this board. I asked for help and no one has responded. This is a sign that there is no point in asking. As it says in the the story of Moses, God has hardened their hearts, and for some reason they do not want to contribute. So I will go back to square one. I will either let the ads go up or I will donate the money myself as I have done. I have spent hundreds of dollars keeping this board ad free and now the gig is up. If others don't care, why should I. It is just my need for the pristine (perfectionism) driving me and that is really just ego stuff. So I am going to let this go and get back to something important. I am amazed sometimes how easily I can get distracted from something important for trivial reasons. When I did this to my children it amounted to covert shaming (long story).
I have to go so thanks for you valiant attempt to help me. But it is all in God's hands now.
Post by Susan Peabody on May 22, 2016 15:42:20 GMT
I am not sure where to put this. It could easily go in my thread about the power of prayer or my thread about balancing money I work for with donations.
Lately, what I have been turning over to God is my financial problems. I am broke because I help my son who is disabled. Yesterday it came down to the wire. Karl wanted money for food and I told him I did not have any money. He was nice about it but I felt bad. Nobody wants their child to go hungry. So I prayed about it. I have written in another blog about the power of prayer. Just before I go to bed, I check my computer one last time for a donation and there it was. Thirty dollars from a client which I earned, and a twenty five dollar donation from a friend. If you are keeping up with my situation about trying to balance earning money for my services, with donations orchestrated by God, you will realize that this is a sign from God, once again, that I am on the right path.
I can't quote Campbell enough. When you are on the right path, invisible hands comes to your aid.
Post by Susan Peabody on May 23, 2016 13:27:19 GMT
I have another story of turning it over. Recently I got an eviction notice because I have bed bugs. They landlord said either my bed goes or I do. I had no money so I broke down and asked my son for help. He is unemployed so he had no money, but he said he would help me. So he spend two days looking for a bed. We were looking for anything free that we could get. Meanwhile I am praying for a new bed because I spend all my time in my bed writing. My bed is my throne. I was also praying for a regular king because a Cal king is too long and a regular mattress not foam. Also medium to soft. So I turn it all over to God and my son. Two days later my son calls and says he has found a new mattress from an overstock company. It is marked down from 1,200 to 400 because it is not a Cal King and is not foam. I told my son we do not have $400 and he says he will use his emergency fund because it is time for him to do something for him. He was saving the money to buy a puppy because he is so lonely. So I said thank you and praise the lord. And I really mean praise the Lord.
Post by Susan Peabody on May 23, 2016 21:05:58 GMT
I just wanted you to know I got my bed. I was ready to take a used bed, but on my wish list I wanted new, no foam, medium to soft and regular king not Cal. So my son went to overstock and they said they had a bed marked down from $1200 fo 400 because everybody wanted foam and Cal King. So we took the bed trying not to shout, "praise the lord." I am, thanks to my son getting new carpets and a paint job. He says I have been taking care of him all his life and it is my turn now. God provides through people. Karl is unemployed so I don't know where he is getting the money. He must have had money put away for the puppy he wanted to buy. He is so lonely. Anyway, since I told you the story I wanted you to know how it ended.
When you make a decision to turn it over to God things will go well and then they won't. Sometimes it is because you are being tested. I wrote the following this morning.
God tested me today. I advertise sliding scale and a woman woke me up from Pennsylvania and wanted to talk. She asked what I charge. Then she asked for one free moment which turned into 20. But I kept my promise to God and I feel great. Ordinarily being woken up would be a problem, but now I just go with the flow and figure it must be time to wake up;