Post by Susan Peabody on May 20, 2016 18:16:17 GMT
Yesterday my life was in turmoil and I was really getting discouraged. I had asked for donation to help me buy a bed or get evicted. I have bed bugs and my landlord says, "The bed goes or you go." I have not heard from anyone yet, but God sent me a message not to be discouraged. Here is is. It came from one of the members of the message board I started, who was responding to my posts about feeling discouraged and wondering if I was really helping people.
Dear Susan:
I am completely gutted that you need assurance that you not doing enough, that you are apologizing for your messages and asking for help! It is painful to watch you suffer.
First thing first: You have a right to ask for money that keeps forum open; otherwise the forum has to be closed. End of story. Yes, it is heart-breaking to think that the forum can be shut.
I am in no position to support you with donations. I am sorry. I am struggle financially. I have to walk three miles to school and from school because I cannot afford a bus ticket. I have been going crazy with self esteem and negativity, because it really kills all my confidence. But I keep my recovery strong. I am telling you this because I want you to know why I am not helping. I am sorry for that.
There is no doubt that you saved my life, in all possible loving ways: support, advice etc. From this I started going to three 12 step groups and really taking action. I get so tired sometimes... I shutdown like a computer. Maybe it will take time to find balance.
I love you, and I wish that I could send money so you do not have to suffer. It is okay to ask for help. That is a big healthy step. I salute you. Some decisions are never easy and I want you to decide to put yourself first. God does not want you to suffer. You have done enough already!!!!!!!!
I LOVE YOU. No Matter what. I will never forget you. For now I can only send my prayers unfortunately.
Waterlili
My response . . .
Dear Waterlili:
Your words mean more to me than any amount of money. And let me tell you that your timing is perfect, as is everything in God's world. I know he will take care of me. I am excited to see how he is going to go about it. God is so creative.
As long as I breathe, this board will not go down. If I go home to my just reward the board will go to my son, Karl McKnight, who will work with the members to decide what will become of the board. If I decide to stop worrying about paying to eliminate the ads, the board should to on as long as the people we rent from are still in business.
I have to go, I am back to the business of life. My partner Frank just had surgery on his toe and lost his pain medicine (he is getting old) so we are working on that today. Life goes on.
Thank you again for your kind sentiments. I started to cry with relief when I read you words. God bless you.
Susan Peabody
When God sees you in despair he will send you comfort. He will always send something or someone to take the edge off. As the Bible says: "Oh death, where is thy sting?"
Dear Susan:
I am completely gutted that you need assurance that you not doing enough, that you are apologizing for your messages and asking for help! It is painful to watch you suffer.
First thing first: You have a right to ask for money that keeps forum open; otherwise the forum has to be closed. End of story. Yes, it is heart-breaking to think that the forum can be shut.
I am in no position to support you with donations. I am sorry. I am struggle financially. I have to walk three miles to school and from school because I cannot afford a bus ticket. I have been going crazy with self esteem and negativity, because it really kills all my confidence. But I keep my recovery strong. I am telling you this because I want you to know why I am not helping. I am sorry for that.
There is no doubt that you saved my life, in all possible loving ways: support, advice etc. From this I started going to three 12 step groups and really taking action. I get so tired sometimes... I shutdown like a computer. Maybe it will take time to find balance.
I love you, and I wish that I could send money so you do not have to suffer. It is okay to ask for help. That is a big healthy step. I salute you. Some decisions are never easy and I want you to decide to put yourself first. God does not want you to suffer. You have done enough already!!!!!!!!
I LOVE YOU. No Matter what. I will never forget you. For now I can only send my prayers unfortunately.
Waterlili
My response . . .
Dear Waterlili:
Your words mean more to me than any amount of money. And let me tell you that your timing is perfect, as is everything in God's world. I know he will take care of me. I am excited to see how he is going to go about it. God is so creative.
As long as I breathe, this board will not go down. If I go home to my just reward the board will go to my son, Karl McKnight, who will work with the members to decide what will become of the board. If I decide to stop worrying about paying to eliminate the ads, the board should to on as long as the people we rent from are still in business.
I have to go, I am back to the business of life. My partner Frank just had surgery on his toe and lost his pain medicine (he is getting old) so we are working on that today. Life goes on.
Thank you again for your kind sentiments. I started to cry with relief when I read you words. God bless you.
Susan Peabody
When God sees you in despair he will send you comfort. He will always send something or someone to take the edge off. As the Bible says: "Oh death, where is thy sting?"